Autistic child treated as a criminal

Kayleb Moon-Robinson has a record now and is classed as a felon.
He was arrested in the state of Virginia, USA.
He is an 11 year-old boy.
He has autism.
The police officer arrested him for “kicking a trashcan”. The police officer saw him do it. He tried to grab the boy and the boy resisted and was also charged with resisting arrest.
Again I say he’s 11!
Over zealous law enforcement, by the looks of it. Where is the justice here?
April is Autism Month. More understanding needed by the arresting officer.
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James Bay – Hear Your Heart

Peri-Menopause, Hot Flushes and Night Sweats

I am quite prepared to go off to the doctor to ask for medication to relieve or eliminate hot flushes and night sweats but I am stick in the mud stubborn to not ask for help with depression.  Yet the medication that I received for the hot flushes turns out to be the same for depression. Go figure. It turns out that Selective Serotonin Re-uptake Inhibitor medication or SSRIs in low doses can actually stop women in peri-menopause and menopause from getting hot flashes and night sweats. This side effect was discovered when doing anti-depressant trials. As I was researching hot flushes as how to get relief or get rid of them I discovered the SSRIs, along with black cohosh, soybean/tofu and wild yam creams.

I decided that I would try SSRIs and supplement that with soya milk. The SSRI that my doctor recommended was one with a long half life (slow release; easy to begin taking and easy to stop taking). Fluoxetine was what was chosen for me. Would it work? There was only one way to try. 10mg daily.

The first two weeks I became an insomniac and I was beginning to suffer from a lack of sleep but I managed to get into a normal sleeping habit and can now fall asleep within 10 minutes, for me that’s normal.

I discovered that I don’t like drinking soy milk, the natural unsweetened kind, no matter how many bananas or blueberries I put in to disguise the taste, I just don’t like it. So that idea went out the window. Tofu once or twice a week is a much more sensible option.

I don’t drink coffee or tea, as in no caffeine. I cheat once a month, but I don’t count that.
Because I don’t drink lattes anymore nor do I indulge in masala chai I don’t drink milk anymore. That was a natural progression. It didn’t occur to me for a while that I had stopped dairy.
I am not eating bread, noodles, rice or potatoes just now, I am a meat and vegetables eater.
I am not eating sweets from a bag. I have cut down on sugar a lot!!!
I do however still bake and make everything in smaller sizes. And instead of eating many in one sitting I can make the tin last for a week sharing.

I feel healthier and lighter and I am becoming leaner. All a welcome change.
I feel brighter too. Cloudy days don’t bug me as much anymore.
The hot flushes have gone.  Hooray!
The sweats have gone.  Hooray!
One particularly bad day I had hot flushes and sweats every half hour. Now. Nothing. Absolute bliss.
I am going into winter and the one good thing about hormonal changes is that my body temperature seems higher and I don’t feel the cold the same.

On getting home from the doctor’s that first day I went home to check the medicine, Fluoxetine. It gave me a bit of a jolt. That’s the generic name for Prozac. I panicked a bit and thought of addiction but then realised that I would not be upping my dose anytime soon this side of Sunday, or the other side either. A plus for Aspergers, being able to follow the rules. I was actually killing two birds with one stone. An ugly saying but one that seemed the most appropriate. Killing the sweaty monster and the dark shadow, what could be better than that? Was I hoping too much?

I just about cried in the car park. With relief. Why did it take me so long to get help for myself? Finding a good doctor was important. Moving around a lot makes it harder to settle on one. Now I feel settled.

So how do I feel?
Menopause feels under control.
Depression feels under control.
I feel that I have my life back again. I feel like someone left the gate open but I don’t realise yet that I can walk through. I can’t believe my luck.

For those of you wondering the difference between a hot flash and a hot flush, well, they are the same thing.
For those wondering what a hot flush feels like, honey, it ain’t anything like a royal flush in cards, it’s more like a wave of heat that hits you suddenly, and only you, it creeps up your body to your face and neck, it makes you come out in a sweat, soaking you to the point that you think everyone must be staring. You feel like you need to mop up fast in case anyone saw. You stand anywhere with a breeze so you get some relief. It can last for years, only weakening in strength with age. It affects everyone differently. Some don’t suffer from them at all. Probably a tiny minority.

Update: Exercise habit is almost nil. I’ve upped the dose from 10mg to 20mg to balance with my weight increase. Drinking tea and the occasional coffee. No night sweats, no hot flashes/flushes. Could do better. Why is it that we know what we should be doing yet we just don’t do it? That in itself makes it doubly frustrating. One day at a time. Don’t be hard on yourself. I know. I know. But still…

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Lou Reed – Perfect Day

Wednesday with Montaigne

Michel de Montaigne, French philospher (28 February 1533 – 13 September 1592)
Wrote essays about his life speaking frankly about man’s insecurities of intellect, body and how one perceives the judgement of others.
Had an arranged marriage.
Lived in a chateau and began writing his essays at the age of 38 in a library of 1500 volumes at the top of a tower. That tower still stands today. 44.8783° N, 0.0300° E

The Essays of Montaigne are to be read time and again. On each reading you will see something new or find relevance to a part of your life that you may not have noticed on your first time reading through.

You can chose to read Montaigne electronically for free thanks to the Gutenberg Project here or go and buy a paperback to thumb through. You can jump in anywhere in the book. Enjoy talking to an old friend or find him as a new one.

Montaigne Quotes:

  • Stubborn and ardent clinging to one’s opinion is the best proof of stupidity.
  • I prefer the company of peasants because they have not been educated sufficiently to reason incorrectly.
  • The value of life lies not in the length of days, but in the use we make of them… Whether you find satisfaction in life depends not on your tale of years, but on your will.
  • If there is such a thing as a good marriage, it is because it resembles friendship rather than love.
  • Of all our infirmities, the most savage is to despise our being.

Jimi Hendrix – All Along The Watchtower

Socrates, philosophy and privilege

Socrates, Greek philosopher, 469 – 399 BC
Never wrote anything down, we know of him because of the writings of Plato and others.
Spent his days thinking of the big questions of life.
Died for his beliefs.

Socrates Quotes:

Wisdom begins with wonder.
The unexamined life is not worth living.
Be as you wish to seem.
Beware of the barrenness of the busy life.
To know, is to know that you know nothing. That is the meaning of true knowledge.

Socratic paradoxes:

  • No one desires evil.
  • No one errs or does wrong willingly or knowingly.
  • Virtue—all virtue—is knowledge.
  • Virtue is sufficient for happiness.

How many of us today follow our beliefs to our deaths? I don’t think that was quite what Socrates had in mind for people to follow them quite that far. Or maybe he did. I think he might be quite humbled or horrified that his words are in print. Buddha didn’t write down his philosophy either. I wonder what he would think? I think he would prefer that we thought and discovered our own principles and beliefs. Do we blindly follow others’ beliefs and claim them as our own without bothering to question them properly? Have we forgotten how to question? Can we be bothered to ask the hard questions when it is easier to say or do nothing for ourselves.

To be handed something on a plate already formed is the easy road to take. We can eat all we see and ask for more. We can ask what it made of and try to piece it together ourselves, it won’t be the same, only richer in flavour, it will be fresher and tastier because you have made the effort to explore. Cooking is like philosophy, don’t you think? What would you rather have: the microwaved frozen TV dinner or a home-cooked meal made with love and care? The name on the box may read identically as the recipe in your book but it will never be the same. And besides who really follows a recipe exactly?  What you create is not exactly as the next person who makes the same recipe, someone may prefer more spice, others more salt, others may be out of an ingredient and substitute, someone may have an allergy and substitute. Variety in cooking is just as important in thought, we may end up with the same conclusion but it is the way in which we got there that is important, is it not?

You may think you are talking about the same thing but your perspective will be different. When you discuss with other people about a thought or an idea are you able to articulate well enough for others to understand? Do you really understand the concept well enough to even attempt to explain it? Do you need to live a lifetime to understand your own philosophy? Or can a 12 year reach the same conclusion as an 80-year old? Will it mean the same? Do your principles stay the same throughout your life or do you grow into a different person through your experiences? Do our beliefs stand fast in the face of hardship and make you stronger, or do we alter our beliefs to bend with society to make the journey through life easier? Do you realise what your own beliefs are? Do you follow the crowd even if it goes against your own beliefs because it is too much effort or uncomfortable to do otherwise? Do you think holding onto your own beliefs is more important that keeping the peace?

In Socrates’ day the population was much smaller and discussions in the open squares were where people brought forth their ideas. That has shifted to politics in today’s world. We see many laws or policies that don’t match our own yet do we stand up and say, “I don’t agree.”? The majority sit back and change a channel and the idea is lost, the anger forgotten. We tend to forget of the struggles of those before us, the ones that made our lives easier, better and fairer. Do we stop and think of the women who stood up to say we want to vote? Do we stop to think of the men and women who fight for the freedom of those that have no strength? Do we stop to think how lucky we are that we can criticise the government with no fear of being imprisoned. Do we stop to think of the ease of our ability to move from one place to the next without interrogation? Do we stop to think about Turing when we switch on a computer? Do we think of Edison when we turn on a light? Do we think of Benz when we start the car?

It is a privilege to be here. Let’s appreciate what we have today and give thanks to those that helped change our lives for the better.

Robbie Williams – Better Man

Must have been sleeping



You know how you are supposed to go through stages through life to develop into an adult. You are supposed to do the soul searching in your teens or your twenties. Well I think I must have skipped that bit.  I was too busy playing sport, studying and travelling. Avoiding. I basically had the icing and left the cake. Well if you knew me that would have been unlikely too. Never leave a plate unfinished. Part of me wants to grow up, the other half is happy being a child. The inner child will always be the inner child though. I’m not sure what I want to have happen but I know I have gaps.

Reading about the inner child, it relates to not-dealt-with-traumas. Well I don’t believe I had tramas growing up. I just never grew up. Why should I? Sure I can act like an adult and I pull it off rather well yet I’m not fooling myself. Is this the Aspergers side of me?  I have no ambition in the traditional sense and quite content usually but not at peace within myself. You might think this gap in my development may have me running for the psychology books but I’m going to take a different direction to Ukraine and Russia.

It’s never to late too fill in the gaps, is it? I think not. Don’t think that I haven’t tried. Believe me I have. Perhaps I didn’t delve deep enough? But something has been missing. I believe it might be Tolstoy, Gogol, Dostoevsky and other Ukraine/Russian writers. I’m going to have a year of Russian novels. I’m going to binge read. Time to reflect and dig deep. I may indulge in Russian food while I’m at it, making borscht and piroshiki. Not to mention reading Ukraine/Russian fairy tales.

I’m going to start with this list of novels and perhaps add some more if I hear of others.

A Hero Of Our Time – Mikhail Lermontov (1840)
Dead Souls – Nikolay Gogol (1842)
Oblomov – Ivan Gontcharov (1859)
Fathers and Sons – Ivan Turgenev (1862)
What Is To Be Done – Nikolay Chernychevshy (1863)
Crime And Punishment – Fyodor Dostoevsky (1867)
War and Peace – Lev Tolstoy (1863-1869)
Anna Karenina – Lev Tolstoy (1875-1877)
The Brothers Karamazov – Fyodor Dostoevsky (1879-1880)
Mother – Maxim Gorky (1906)
Petersburg –  Andrei Bely (1916, then revised edition 1922)
Envy – Yuri Olesha (1927)
Invitation to a Beheading, Vladimir Nabokov (1936)
The Master And The Margarita – Mikhail Bulgakov (1966) [ Burgin/Tiernan O’Connor’s translation]
The Foundation Pit – Andrey Platonov (finished in 1930 but not published until 1987 due to censorship)
The Time: Night – Ludmilla Petrushevskaya (1992)
Omon Ra – Victor Pelevin (1992)
Day of the Oprichnik – Vladimir Sorokin (2006)
The Dream Life of Sukhanov – Olga Grushin (2006)
The Secret History of Moscow – Ekaterina Sedia (2007)

Hozier – Take Me To Church